2009-02-24 - 5:33 p.m.
I'm so over having a good time out and then having it come down to a rage fest because my friend can't distinguish between disagreement and being abandoned/shunned, so therefore she attacks in a blind rage - lying, spinning the truth, spewing venom at me and then just full on insanity.
My slight for being screamed at for 30 minutes while being driven home from a party? That I introduced her to someone and that person once asked her to smoke them up at a party and has never returned the favor.
Seriously. Now - the person who is angry at me for this horrific injustice cannot remember when said injustice occurred, but knows that it is my fault because I introduced her to this person, so therefore I tacitly asked for her to treat them with different rules than are normal which apparently include always sharing drugs with them. I guess this from the words that were being screamed at me.
Also, this person was put out because this other friend had asked her to give him a ride to the party and that he always takes advantage of her all the time. Which is so not true. (This friend she is angry at moved away at least 3 years ago and lives in another state.) Never mind either that we never wanted her to drive, we wanted to take the train. She refused to take the train and offered to give us a ride when I told her that P would be coming along. But in my friend's neverending tally of perceived slights even things that aren't true have been notched against me forevermore.
What's really the stupidest part of this argument is that I actually partook of it this time. Yes, I had been baited into this argument and asked to apologize for someone else's behavior 4 times this week alone by D. But I guess at 3 am with a few drinks under my belt, and being told that all my friends are jackasses over and over, I snapped and actually argued.
So to remedy this bullshit and arm myself with the tools I need to survive my insane friends - I bought a book today on how to deal with borderline personalities. After reading several pages of the description of the problems associated with borderline personality disorder - I'm quite convinced that this book will teach me to set boundaries and limits and deflect unneccessary attacks on me from crazy people.
Wish me luck! Because otherwise I'm becoming a hermit.
